Its been so long since i updated. I dun have any pics recently and I have no time to blog either. Sometimes, I just feel bored blogging. I prefer not to use com that much.

Btw, I have the urge to blog suddenly and idk why. Maybe Im too free? I should do my assignments since Im so free =.= I just looked at someone's blog and I felt that sometimes life isnt that simple. Ppl changed, friends getting far apart, environment changed, and most of all... life getting worse! Life sucks sometimes. I wonder. Why can't human live a simple life and have a simple relationship? I dun totally mean girl and boy relationship, but including friends and family. Its just so complicated at times. And because of all this, there's no true friendship and true relationship. Everything is just so FAKE! Everything is like in a movie, having a different personalities. Its just so hard to trust someone when u have something to express. I always wanted a super huge teddy bear so that i could just hug it tightly when i need a hug. A BIG BIG HUG! Teddy wouldn't hurt me nor betray me. Teddy would be my best best friend ever. Listen to anything I say patiently and it give me comfort. I just want to express sometimes. But to who? Who can I trust?

Life is just so complicated. Why cant ppl live happily without love? It would be so much easier. Love is the one that ruins everything. Ppl could betray a friends due to LOVE. wtf. Love is more important than friendship? Maybe it is. But which 1 last longer? Friends right? When u need a friend, they are always there, but would ur bf/gf? Not necessary. I feel so dumb and brainless sometimes when I think of somebody that most of my friends said not worth to love/wait for him. But I just couldn't make it. Memories always running in my mind no matter what. It wouldn't fade away though I tried so hard not to think about it. Ist worth for me to wait for him? I know some ppl care about me and I should give it a try cause its just wasting time waiting. But I just can't. CAN"T. Get it? Not that I wouldn't want to forget, its just not that simple. Unless I lost my memory someday, like get hit by a car? Or get smack on the head? maybe that is the only way, to have a brand new 'memory card'. Would be great if this could happen right?

Gosh, Im so emo right now and idk why. *paused for a moment* okay, thats all for today. Wont be updating soon I guess. Will be having finals on my last week. Wish me luck ^^

- Exotic baby -