Holiday is coming soon and I hope I'll enjoy it with joy.. but still I think the sem break is still too short.. I have so many things to do within the 3 weeks time.

-undang test
-driving lesson
-if possibly take my driving test(I know everyone got that d)
-back to hometown
-secondary bbq party (at my house)
-some fun time with my college 'family'

and do I have time for relaxing, sleeping, on9-ing whole day, watch tv, shopping, etc.. ??

Today was quite fun. Cherie, rainie and I had wore our one and only long skirt . Its very nice when we walked together. The skirts looks so nice when the wind blows. Btw, we had drawing class in the morning. We are allow to go out from the class and find a nice view to draw. The 4 girls- cherie, rainie, nicole, I and the only guy-Andy sat at the stairway and start our drawing. As we draw, we talked about so many stuff including personal family problems, girls opinion and so on. Andy was the only guy there and he was so quite drawing , BUT he was listening with his ears opening so wide. He said it was fun to stay with girls and listen to what they said compare to talking to guys. Girls ROCK!

After lunch, we had out boring P.M class. As usual, presentation time! Viinc and I present 'Tok Janggut" and I don't think its an excellent presentation. Then, we had our free time doing the ques that the lecturer gave us . We finished it and start gossiping. After gossiping with the guys, I went to the upper floor and look for the girls. Then, I forgot about the time. I asked my mom to come over and fetch me but she waited for me for more than 20 minutes. Oh, Im so sorry! And mom is rushing back for her class at 4.30, and its already 4.15 by that time. When I walked down the classroom, I told the lecturer that I need to go first bcoz my mom is waiting for me and I need to go somewhere else. What she answered was ' Ur mom la, Ur dad la, blah.. blah..blah..' And when I turned myself, Panda was beside me and I just said the F*** word out and hen I get back to my sit and get my bag, Rainie asked what she said and I just pointed a middle finger to show her. Wtf, what stupid lecturer is this. I could just walked out without informing her but I didn't. I show some respect to her and that was how she replied. I was so damn angry with her and yeah, fire are coming out from my head.

Btw, we had some camwhore when we were discussing our ques. I need to get my pics from papa(panda). I'll post it on when I get it later after he tagged me on faceboook.

p/s: there's a new couple in our ID class - charles & irene (happy coupling) :p so sweet ~

HUG

Thanks for all the hugz guys/girls. I really really appreciate it. But I need a REAL HUG as in let me hug a real person. Dear(ym), I've seen your blog and thanks for your words. And thanks for listening to me and your comments, etc. What I need the most now is a shoulder for me and a big nice hug! The reason for this whole thing is because of one particular reason/person - xxx. Why do you have to treat me this way? You confess that you xxxx me, so WHY? What is the reason? It was just not the same person that I used to know. Have you changed or there's other reason behind all this? Just 2 weeks ago, you said you changed your mind and I'm so so happy to hear that. But things never last long. Few days ago, you told me that you are not into a relationship and asked me to do whatever I want. What do u mean by that? You've melted my heart on 1st July and you've broken my heart on 10th July. And only 10 days, 10 DAYS for me stay happy and full of energy in doing everything. Now, its OVER.

Last week, someone in my college said this during class *the whole conversation is in mandarin*

Are you in love?
Haha, why?
Coz you're getting prettier.
Ist? (feeling sweet). Ya, I am (feeling so proud bcoz the person is xxx)
Owh, thats why la. 'Tian mi zhong de mei li' (If u could understand mandarin)
....

Now I'm getting uglier. And you know why? Because I'm heart broken. [heart broken-sad-no mood-not finishing homework-no sleeping to finish homework-homework was done horribly-bad grades-might fail] And that the whole point. So don't get surprise to see me resitting my subject .

T_T I still have a presentation to do tomorrow. How am I going to present with this feeling ? Moreover, we have not been discussing who will be presenting which slide. Haih, I don't think I will have mood to study tomorrow. I'm sorry if I can't present well tomorrow, but I hope this doesn't affect my day tomorrow.

p/s: I received so many HUGZ and I'm glad that there's frenz out there cheering for me when I needed them. And again THANKS everyone!

Dreams that I would never want to forget

Well, I don't think people will look at what I post here. But I just need to express myself. Am I stupid or what !!?? I've been acting like a child and being unmature.. I don't know how to appreciate something/someone that means a lot to me.. I don't know what I'm thinking by that time.. I had now regretted but there is no turning back for me.. NEVER! I've tried every single way to turn the whole situation back to it used to be, but its useless.. It never work out and what I get is the worst that I never ever think about it.. I've never imagine that this will happen to me, and with this particular person , NEVER EVER ! But you cannot predict the future, and so it happens.. And the thing that I can do now is face it , but i just couldn't .. I don't want to face the reality because I'm really scare that I couldn't take it so sudden.. I need to be TOUGH to face this.. or maybe it will take some time.. I just don't know what should I do now.. Maybe I'm thinking too much and I shouldn't think about it anymore..But the thing is IT just get into my mind every second and even in my dream.. Its not that I want to think about it, it just run into my mind, and can't be control.

Maybe, IF I just run into an accident and get into comma, I would have be happier.. I couldn't tell this to anyone about this situation , not even my mom.. I talk everything to her , every single thing! But not this.. I don't want her to feel upset about this because she really really likes xxx a lot.. I can't really explain how much she likes her , but if you're in my place, you will get it..

Every time when I see he's online, I feel so excited and my heart will bump so fast even its nothing.. I will keep my eyes on the online contact list to check whether he is still on9-ing.. And I always waited for him to talk to me or either say 'hello'. Sometimes I just can't wait and just started the conversation.. But there is nothing more for us to chat and gossip.. I remembered that we used to talk hours on phone almost every week and we will have topic to talk about.. Though sometimes we stop talking on both side and it was so silent and I can even heard your breathing, and I still feel happy that you are still on the phone with me..

We had gone through some experience that others doesn't, that is being apart from each other for a long term.. We still managed to get back with each other .. But things really changed.. There's no more turning back for me and I don't think that will be your choice, RIGHT? I don't know whether there's already been someone that let you keep your eyes on her or some other reasons.. But this reason keep running in my mind and I keep denying it because if it is, I wouldn't know what to do next. And I hope that is not the reason. But of course, if it is, that's good for you and maybe its good for me too. MAYBE I would be able to move on IF there's someone else for you to care or either care for you, and that's a MAYBE. I'm not sure about that.

As I think back, I really realize that I had been so freaking stupid for letting you go so easily without any reason. I also never think about what you feel when I said those words to you and I'm SO SO SO SORRY about that. I know its too late for me to say that but I just need to appologize. I know that you are getting tired and worried about your exams but is this the reason for the whole thing? Please tell me! I need to know why is this happening. And what do you mean that I have no ties with you? If I really don't, I wouldn't have meet you 3 years after we graduated, and also fall in love with you.

WHY IS THE WORLD FULL OF COMLICATION? WHY? WHY? WHY?

p/s: I'm just expressing my feelings and please skip over if you feel its boring or anything. Tq.

There's a pile of homework and assignments waiting for me but I need to express all this first before I could do my homework. By the way, I know xxx wouldn't have know my blog because he DOESN'T EVEN KNOW that I have a blog! But of course I would like him to know all this, not by purposely, but naturally. I hope he can changed his mind one day, allowing me to get back to my sweet dreams FOREVER. That's a hope that I think it will never happen.

*understand this with your true heart*

LOVE starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
If you love something/someone, let it go. ( what I'm doing now )
If it comes back to you, its yours. (hope so)
If it doesn't, then it never was.
A kiss is still a kiss until you find the one you love.
A hug is still a hug until its from someone you are thinking of.
LOVE is just a word until its proven to you.
Cherish everything that GOD gave before it is taken away from you.
You may not know what will happen to you tomorrow.
Treasure every moment before you regret.
For those who had missed his/her opportunity, try to save it back before you regret.
For those who had regret, I hope you can find your way out. (just like me)

Homework time, tata!

Relaxing Night

Did you notice something?

*glasses*

All of them were playing with my NEW glasses . All of us took a (like we will take only 1) picture with the glasses and we used it as facebook profile picture.. So don't be curious when you see the same glasses appear in fb..

Its so hard to get HL photo, so appreaciate it :p

Relaxing~

It's been so long that we never go out together. We used to hang out at shopping complexes, cafe, etc.. After we graduated, we seldom hang out together anymore.. Everyone's being busy with college-homework, assignments, research ...etc... Sometimes when we chat, we were hoping that we are now in secondary school.. Its been so much fun during those days.. HOLIDAYS, SHOPPING, 'YUMCHA', and these were our 'activities' during those days.. We can just go out anytime as long as we don't have tuition ... Now, its different.. We need to plan so long and sometimes within the last minute, it was canceled.. Everyone looks so stress and our smile is not as we used to have in secondary.. Its like being forced..


And with a few days of planning, FINALLY we are out again *glad that we went out together* !!! And this time, we choose to go LEO, a place that we used to hang out when we were Form 2.. Its been long that we didn't go there..

showing my hair color*rusted hair as told by Nigel*

We meet there at 8pm but everyone was late and that the Malaysian style *being late* T_T .. Kai li was the only one that didn't go.. and she told me last minute.. Sue reached first, then Hl .. Yh was the last to reached.. We talked, talked, talked.... until it was 11pm and we were planning to go for durian but the thing is Ym(dear) doesnt like the smell of durian and we were sitting in her car, so we decieded to change a place.. They were just hoping to go to a place with different environment T_T .. And so, the final decision is ------ MY HOUSE!!!!



The 5 of us came to my house , driven by our driver-YEN MEI !!! They stayed at my room for about half an hour cause Sue, Ym and Hl have class the nxt morning.. We on9, play rubik cubes, gossip, camwhore.. That's lots of laughter and I never feel so happy before since I get into college.. I felt the happiness that I used to have in secondary.. And the feeling is AWESOME, GREAT, UNDESCRIBABLE ! And at 12+, they left with Ym fetching them home.. I upload the photos that we took and post it on facebook.. By the time I finish uploading, its already 1am+.. And thats the time for me to sleep.. Class at 10am on sat.. ><

Temporary rest

Mr. Allen and Ms. Easy

Mr. Allen AGAIN & Tang Tang

Finally.. I'll get to rest.. juz temporary..XD Presentation is over and assignment had been handed-up today.. Phew..FINALLY a short break for me.. I slept 3 hours yesterday just to finish up my assignment.. The whole class did not slept well yesterday..some even stay awake the whole night rushing a history assignment.. In the middle of lunch time, before our history class began, a bunch of interior students stayed in the library or either the student lounge to finish up their assignment.. I didn't managed to get the photos of everyone because I was doing my own homework as well :p and of course gossiping and walking around disturbing others..haha..

Our class monitor - Mr. Allen Tan Xiao Huang ( in superman mood ) XD

"Tic toc tic toc..." Its almost 4.30pm and they were still writing and pasting .. I did helped some of them *proud* haha.. We packed up our stuff(s) and rushed to the class .. Our history lecturer hasn't reach yet and we stayed there talking rubbish.. At the end, some managed to finished up their work while some just couldn't finish..

Tomorrow will be a fun day for the gang (rainie, cherie, tang tang, panda, lemon, shirly ...etc).. They are going to Melaka, which is Rainie's hometown and they are leaving in her house for one night.. I was called to joined but [Rainie: sorry, cannot la.. I have plan already! next time k?] So, I'll miss the fun .. Bring some chicken rice ball back for me k? haha..

Yeah..!!! Monday no class.. Woohoo...Our 'God'- Eric Leong, are going somwhere( no idea where), and so our class is canceled.. And another reason is our lesson is finishing so he doesn't have to replace class for us..

Oh ya.. I got some pictures of our presentation day..some camwhore :p

Everyone busy(ing) with their presentation work

Panda eating while others presenting (hey, aren't you on diet?)

My 'secure' modal with some '....' fingers

Can you see our modal(s) ?

Viinc with his 'pressure' modal

Andy eating while others presentating

Blah..blah..blah

Transformer was quite interesting as I thought.. The actions were cool enough..Some said that the 1st was better than Transformer 2, but to me.. Its just the same.. Especially when it comes to MEGAN FOX !!! She's HOT !!! I wonder where the guys looked at the scene where she laid down on the ground.. The jaws are dropping I guess *laugh*..Part of the reason guys watched that movie is because of her I guess :p Girlfriends, don't be mad.. Close one eye and take it easy.. They can see but they can't owned, or even hold..so relax :p Anyway, Harry Porter is coming soon.. I'm more keen to that.. So..wait till its on screen...

What are the guys thinking..or either looking?

College Life .. Busy ~

Its been freaking long that I didn't update my blog.. sorry for that.. Im juz being too busy through college life - Tonnes of homeworks.. assignments.. NON-STOP..

From top left : sean, aaron, easy

From bottom left: Me, shirly

I wonder this happens to every college or only TOA students...??? Aww... I'm sorry for all TOA students *laugh*.. Actually its kind of fun doing assignments with a bunch of friends..We just need longer period for our handup day.. Its just too rush...

Btw, I still get hang out with them after classes ..most likely to Sunway pyramid.. the nearest place ever for now..We need less then 5 minutes to reach pyramid and we're like going there everyday.. We are getting frustrated with it now.. But no choice.. Its the only relaxing place for us after classes.. We need to relax OK?

Supposingly we are having our exploring week now..BUT..those lecturers are too hardworking ..or maybe they'll miss us if there's no classes on..? *laugh*

This thursday is my so call 'final presentation'.. what we need to do is present our modal to a man that will be invited by our lecturer-Miss Harlina.. And the total marks for this presentation is 100% : 30% from lecturer and 70% from the special guest ..XD I've done 50% of the modal but I faced a problem.. How can I stick the pvc on the modal and ended up with a curve ? Summore explanations of the modal is needed for presentation.. Do I have enough time for everything? I hope so *gasp*.. Research, homeworks, assignments are loading up and is freaking me out.. No wonder my friends told me that TOA students stay awake the whole night to finish up their homeworks.. Now I really get it.. I mean it ! And its only the beginning of the year.. No!no!no!.. It should be the beginning of the semester *gulp*

I don't want t say such rubbish here anymore.. Life are fragile..Faced it tough..!!! =)